Knowing when enough is enough
In just a few minutes, the lunar nodes will make their once-every-18-months ingress into a new axis--the Aries/Libra axis. The last dregs of the nodes in Taurus and Scorpio feel like a squeezing, a pressure, like I’ve been sucked to the bottom of a whirlpool and I’m just waiting for the rest of the water to drain. This visual of a drain, of something fluid circling around and around until there’s nothing left, creating its own gravity and momentum, has lingered with me since it first collided with my mind several months ago. Maybe it’s Scorpio filling my natal second house, maybe it’s because I re-watched Psycho recently, but the fluidity of resources, both shared and not shared, has never felt more visceral to me.
I spend a lot of my time in my inner world, contemplating the machinations of my outer world. What I’ve noticed is how much every single thing is in a constant state of exchange. There’s nothing that is ever truly owned, nothing that truly belongs to any one of us. And yet, the material realities of my life demand so much from me that it seems like I don’t even own my life, at times. Ketu has absolutely made itself known during its time in my second house, stripping me of nearly every resource I thought I could rely upon—particularly money. What’s arisen from this draining, this emptying out of every material resource, at the same time as my responsibilities grew and consumed so much more of me than I ever imagined possible, has been an increased sharpness of clarity about what I actually need. And yeah, it’s money, but so much of it is not money.
Things I actually need:
Shelter
Clothing
Food
Water
Love
Intentional experiences
Laughter
Belonging
Fulfillment
Rest
And yes, a lot of these things are made more accessible by money, but that is by design and not a system we ever had a choice about living in. So much of what I need is not money.
It is possible to have too much money. It's also possible to not have enough money--this is a reality that is more commonly experienced than the latter. But I think the concept, the idea, the feeling of "enough" when it comes to money is really whatever amount of money makes it so that you don't have to think about it constantly. My goal in life has always been to have enough money flowing through enough systems in my life that I actually think about money very minimally. This is a peace of mind that is optional for people with too much money, and completely out of reach for people with not enough money. We all deserve that kind of inner quiet that comes from knowing there is enough, and there will always be enough.
Enough isn't that far away. You deserve to discover and experience your version of enough. You deserve that peace of mind. It is possible, though it may not be easy, and it's what you deserve.
